New Year, a Shower, and New Thoughts

An epiphany struck me its deathly blow tonight while in my chamber of somber thought… my shower. The amazingly hot water in this place must deal a +10 int bonus while I’m occupying it, for I always think so much and so profoundly. You just won’t believe this. I let my mind wander over the snapshots I carried in the back of my head of the day’s events and realized… I view life subliminally in the 3rd person! All my images were from about 10-25 feet away, looking at me interacting with my environment in those special moments I captured in the annals of my memories, like getting lunch with a coworker, or working at a copier… but then I thought of more personal actions, such as visiting the restroom, getting lunch alone and the like, and they’re all first-person–through my eyes. When at work I’m so focused on my external appearance and interaction with others I see myself entirely that way–without a room full of mirrors! Amazing, huh? Anyone else experience this? Think quickly, don’t let your mind make up anything!

So my epiphany is that I’m going to try drinking black coffee tomorrow. I consume just entirely too much cream and sugar and figure that could help me lose a little extra fluff around the edges.

Scary Tidings

Scary day. Tried to move into my new place and found my brothers’ desire to help (though promised to me) wanting. Excuses and feigned anger from little bro, ignorance from older. Mom gets upset again at state of house. Both brothers end up leaving completely. Little one scares me… I don’t know where he is, who he’s with or what he’s going to do. Have read some of his writings and he is a lonely, lost soul hungry for purpose. I hope he finds it in the right place in such a delicate time. I nearly hit what looked like an old hay cart on I-205. Exhausted for once in a long while, a bit down. May tomorrow bring better news and happier tidings. Signing off in my new place.

Life of working dreams

Docile life and work without labor is unenthralling for those of certain aspirations. A simplistic job for which I am qualified to perform without the social benefits conferred by a degree quickly turns painfully menial, which cannot be remedied with well-earned but meager biweekly compensation. The rigors of scholastic pursuits disallows physical activity; every morning i awaken with a stronger vanilla flavor on my tongue. This anguish will not subside until my path is altered, and the ground which my feet should have walked eight years ago crunches beneath my steps.

Hello Physics Program!

Gift

My dad showed me a very cool machine today. I can’t tell you about it, though, because he wants to patent it. If it really works, it will change the world.

It set me thinking on my own theories and inventions: life is too short to give them a pass. Find out if it works…that’s 95% of the fun. (Patent and profit is the rest).

Additionally, I gave in: my little bro and I drove to Best Buy so I could purchase a new $70 Razer gaming headset. My old $25 one from Freddy’s had died–the mic went out. We then proceeded to, strangely–Freddy’s–to snag game fuel (candy, we had already located Monster Hitmans at BB earlier), then on to Wendy’s.

Many zombies perished at my hand tonight. More shall follow!!!!

Saturday

I woke after noon, the gift of Saturday.  Mom made Thanksgiving dinner in October, we watched movies (Rocky, The Mist, Monty Python & The Holy Grail) and I looked up gorillapods.  I love HDR photography and hope to buy a monster SLR one of these days.  For now it’d be useful for my little Flip camcorder I recently purchased, which was certainly at a much more reasonable price.  I had Starbucks VIA today for the first time, which is even more powerful than their regular brew.

I have to do homework in Microsoft Works.  (Oh, please, Office 2010, come quickly.)  The killing blow is that it is MIS and sociology.  I can tell you that computers are driving me insane at this very moment without either class, thanks.

It’s 11:54 pm. Do you know where your mso.dll is?

Gift

I just bought my lil bro’s birthday present. Is it wrong to be a conservative and love to give?

Extra “Fun”

I was talking with my brother about how self-driven I tend to be.  I work for FedEx Office full time, am attending NYIT online double full-time, and still wonder what to do with myself.  I have made it to level 40 in WoW, and have now learned how to play Left4Dead, which will come in handy at PDXLAN 14.5 and Intel LanFest.  My brother admonished me that instead of tripling up on classes, I should do something fun instead! like his fiancee, who takes a pottery class.  I am a long-time bowler, and have considered joining a league; I have also been trying to get down to a local MMA gym for training.  Upon looking at Clackamas Community College’s course catalog, I couldn’t find anything that tickled my fancy.  I wanted to take a Photoshop or Illustrator class.  All I found was Technical Physics… and in my brother’s eyes, that’s not fun, but don’t ask me what I think of it.

Anyone out there have any ideas for a good class or extracurricular activity (like volleyball or some sport) they know of?  Quick, they say youth is wasted on the young, and I want to prove “them” wrong!

Politics

I get so angry over politics.  I am very conservative and somewhat libertarian.  Today, Rep. Alan Grayson was on TV with his amazingly eloquent presentation of the Republican Health Care Plan.  “DIE QUICKLY.”  This is why I do not watch TV, read the paper or discuss politics anymore; and why I let National Review expire.  2010 will be a year of happiness or deeper cave dwelling.  Where is My America?  Where is the America of Thomas Jefferson, of Ben Franklin, of the Founding Fathers?  What are these exceedingly childish shenanigans we are forced to endure?

I go now to enjoy learning Left4Dead with my lil bro.  I must learn these games for the LAN parties coming up.  Homework is already done.  Had a great day at work with Heather W visiting customers.

It was chilly, damp, and slightly breezy.  Fall is coming.  Bring on the cocoa!

Hello world!

The default title WordPress assigns for the first post is appropriate.  As a programmer, I always appreciate whenever this phrase is used in any capacity, for it represents a geekily-enlightened mind.

For the true purpose of this blog, read the About page.

I’m excited about the opportunity to write about life.  For me, it is joyous.  Not in a religious way, not in a dependent fashion, but personally, internally… deeply.

This blog will explore unspoken thoughts, feelings, sighs and reckonings in depth.  It’s going to be quite the journey discovering how interesting life is!

As I said in About… Come with me.

—Heather